White Privilege II (Unpacking the Invisible Knapsack)

Macklemore and Lewis strike a chord with the writer on this rap. One of the most difficult processes that I have encountered into my Self Knowledge inquiry is the prejudice that I am. Is it some deep primal, tribal embedded natural process of the unconscious that is fueled by the natural need to survive? Is it purely present by experience from needing to be accepted which conditions the conscious mind to accept prejudice as necessary for some form of security? I suspect for myself that it is present with me due to all the above, but I’m not certain of a conclusion to it because it takes a considerable amount of awareness to unearth the presence of prejudice that is hidden in the unconscious for me.

This song hits home for me. When the BLM movement had established it’s argument and motive, it was difficult for me to get behind it due to the separation and demarcation line that it drew. I knew full well that most of the people that needed to understand the solid reason for such a movement would never consider the facts supporting it due to the obvious separation from just the name of the movement. How could a “white man” get involved without going to war with a part of his own tribe, that was mostly not consciously racist? I’m not a war monger, and desire peace with everyone, although I can create a bit of disturbance peacefully. I began to recognize the institutional embedded prejudices that are present in the United States of America as I began to recognize my own prejudices, that I somehow hidden from myself.  I realized that the work that I had done to support equality  was fueled by the deep need to cover the prejudices that I was not aware of.  This has been a very difficult and painful discovery.  I reckon this is a form of a public confession of sorts, and I can’t fear being honest. I just can’t and am being much more open in my moment to moment being about my prejudice as it shows itself to me during daily living. This process I am allowing to happen probably leaves me more misunderstood by folks who regularly encounter me, but I have grown fairly comfortable with being misunderstood. It seems necessary that for me to continue to mature and understand myself that I be comfortable with being misunderstood.

I don’t know if it is a good or bad thing that Macklemore is trying to open minds that need opened. I am inclined to see it as very well intended, but time will tell if the aim hits the mark. I appreciate it though, cause it reminds me of my own blindness and need to more understand why I am how I am.

This video is about Peggy McIntosh and her own discovery of prejudice hidden in her unconscious. Her list compiled by unpacking the invisible knapsack is well worthy of considering if one is interested in seeing….

Lyrics to White Privilege II

Pulled into the parking lot, parked it
Zipped up my parka, joined the procession of marchers
In my head like, “Is this awkward?
Should I even be here marching?”
Thinking if they can’t, how can I breathe?
Thinking that they chant, what do I sing?
I want to take a stance cause we are not free
And then I thought about it, we are not “we”
Am I in the outside looking in, or am I in the inside looking out?
Is it my place to give my two cents?
Or should I stand on the side and shut my mouth
“No justice, no peace,” okay, I’m saying that
They’re chanting out, “Black Lives Matter,” but I don’t say it back
Is it okay for me to say? I don’t know, so I watch and stand
In front of a line of police that look the same as me
Only separated by a badge, a baton, a can of Mace, a mask
A shield, a gun with gloves and hands that gives an alibi
In case somebody dies behind a bullet that flies out of the 9
Takes another child’s life on sight

[Hook (x3)]
Blood in the streets, no justice, no peace
No racist beliefs, no rest ’til we’re free
There’s blood in the streets, no justice, no peace
No racist beliefs, no rest ’til we’re free

[Interlude 1]

[Macklemore, speaking over voices]
Oh, what are you doing Ben? What are you doing here? Ben, think about it

[Various indistinct male voices]
Probably shouldn’t be here, you have white supremacy, don’t fuckin’ come here. You don’t give a shit about us. “Black Lives Matter”, say it. Wow, Black Lives Matter, Black Lives Matter, Black Lives Matter, Black Lives Matter. You should not have done that. Why the fuck would you do that? You always react. Just let it go, man. White racist. It’s the Grammys

[Verse 2]
You’ve exploited and stolen the music, the moment
The magic, the passion, the fashion, you toy with
The culture was never yours to make better
You’re Miley, you’re Elvis, you’re Iggy Azalea
Fake and so plastic, you’ve heisted the magic
You’ve taken the drums and the accent you rapped in
You’re branded hip-hop, it’s so fascist and backwards
That Grandmaster Flash’d go slap it, you bastard
All the money that you made
All the watered down pop-bullshit version of the culture, pal
Go buy a big-ass lawn, go with your big-ass house
Get a big-ass fence, keep people out
It’s all stubborn, anyway, can’t you see that now?
There’s no way for you to even that out
You can join the march, protest, scream and shout
Get on Twitter, hashtag and seem like you’re down
But they see through it all, people believe you now?
You said publicly, “Rest in peace, Mike Brown”
You speak about equality, but do you really mean it?
Are you marching for freedom, or when it’s convenient?
Want people to like you, want to be accepted
That’s probably why you are out here protesting
Don’t think for a second you don’t have incentive
Is this about you, well, then what’s your intention?
What’s the intention? What’s the intention?

[Interlude 2: Protesters (x13)]
Hands up? Don’t shoot

[Verse 3]
Pssst, I totally get it, you’re by yourself
And the last thing you want to do is take a picture
But seriously, my little girl loves you
She’s always singing, “I’m gonna pop some tags”
I’m not kidding, my oldest, you even got him to go thrifting
And “One Love,” oh my God, that song, brilliant
Their aunt is gay, when that song came out
My son told his whole class he was actually proud
That’s so cool, look what you’re accomplishing
Even the old mom like me likes it, cause it’s positive
You’re the only hip-hop that I let my kids listen to
Cause you get it, all that negative stuff isn’t cool
Yeah?
Yeah, like, all the guns and the drugs
The bitches and the hoes and the gangs and the thugs
Even the protest outside, so sad, and so dumb
If a cop pulls you over, it’s your fault if you run
Huh?

[Interlude 3: Various male and female voices]
So, they feel that the police are discriminating against the – the black people? I have an advantage? Why? Cause I’m white? [Laughs]. What? [Laughs]. No. See, more people nowadays are just pussies. Like, this is the generation to be offended by everything. Black Lives Matter thing is a reason to take arms up over perceived slights. I’m not prejudiced, I just–. 99% of the time, across this country, the police are doing their job properly

[Verse 4]
Damn, a lot of opinions, a lot of confusion, a lot of resentment
Some of us scared, some of us defensive
And most of us aren’t even paying attention
It seems like we’re more concerned with being called racist
Than we actually are with racism
I’ve heard that silences are action and God knows that I’ve been passive
What if I actually read a article, actually had a dialogue
Actually looked at myself, actually got involved?
If I’m aware of my privilege and do nothing at all, I don’t know
Hip-hop has always been political, yes
It’s the reason why this music connects
So what the fuck has happened to my voice if I stay silent when black people are dying
Then I’m trying to be politically correct?
I can book a whole tour, sell out the tickets
Rap entrepreneur, built his own business
If I’m only in this for my own self-interest, not the culture that gave me a voice to begin with
Then this isn’t authentic, it is just a gimmick
The DIY underdog, so independent
But the one thing the American dream fails to mention
Is I was many steps ahead to begin with
My skin matches the hero, likeness, the image
America feels safe with my music in their systems
And it’s suited me perfect, the role, I’ve fulfilled it
And if I’m the hero, you know who gets cast as the villain
White supremacy isn’t just a white dude in Idaho
White supremacy protects the privilege I hold
White supremacy is the soil, the foundation, the cement and the flag that flies outside of my home
White supremacy is our country’s lineage, designed for us to be indifferent
My success is the product of the same system that let off Darren Wilson – guilty
We want to dress like, walk like, talk like, dance like, yet we just stand by
We take all we want from black culture, but will we show up for black lives?
We want to dress like, walk like, talk like, dance like, yet we just stand by
We take all we want from black culture, but will we show up for black lives?

[Interlude 4: Various male and female voices]
Black Lives Matter, to use an analogy, is like if, if there was a subdivision and a house was on fire. The fire department wouldn’t show up and start putting water on all the houses because all houses matter. They would show up and they would turn their water on the house that was burning because that’s the house that needs the help the most. My generation’s taken on the torch of a very age-old fight for black liberation, but also liberation for everyone. Injustice anywhere is still injustice everywhere. The best thing white people can do is talk to each other, having those very difficult, very painful conversations with your parents, with your family members. I think one of the critical questions for white people in this society is, “What are you willing to risk? What are you willing to sacrifice to create a more just society?”

[Outro: Jamila Woods]
Your silence is a luxury, hip-hop is not a luxury
Your silence is a luxury, hip-hop is not a luxury
Your silence is a luxury, hip-hop is not a luxury
Your silence is a luxury, hip-hop is not a luxury
What I got for me, it is for me
What we made, we made to set us free
What I got for me, it is for me
What we made, we made to set us free
What I got for me, it is for me
What we made, we made to set us free

 

Merry Christmas

This is the worst and best time of the year depending on perspective reality. There have been lonely Christmas’s and full house Christmas’s experienced for the writer. If it weren’t for the lonely ones, the full ones would not be nearly as appreciated as they are now. As the number of Christmas’s pile up with age, the prospect of this one being the last one makes me grateful to experience another one. Time spent with love and care with loved ones is plenty enough to be content with no matter the conditions implied behind the meaning of the gathering. Being a social creature; it does me good to socialize with relations.

As a child, Christmas started with the arrival of the Sears and Roebuck Christmas catalog. I would spend many a time leafing through it and pointing out my desires to my parents. I never really did make a list for Santa. Dad was with Jesus so we were told his truth at a young age, and that truth did not include some red suit wearing chubby dude from the northern axis of this planet. I love my Dad for that. His truths probably saved my life when I was at my lowest. He never faltered in his faith no matter how much he suffered from cancer during his last days with us in body, and it definitely soothed my emptiness from losing his physical presence. For me that lead to problems later because that soothing masked my fear of emptiness, or being lonely. That pain was a part of me that left with him because he simply was me in part and still is.  It took me 13 years to understand that for myself and that the pain was really the love trying to escape and go with him, but I was too foolish to let love go with it’s nature to where it desired to be.  I am looking forward to celebrating the birth of Jesus with loved ones, no matter to what truth is or isn’t so I wish you all a Merry Christmas, Happy holidays, Happy Solstice, Happy Xmas, and Happy nothings.  Can’t get more politically correct than that other than staying silent. :).

I am sharing some Christmas songs from artists or bands that I have posted here in the past. Be well, Stay well and Rock on!!

Gregory Page

Vulfpeck

Front Porch Step

Jillette Johnson

Black Praire

The Digital Age

Josh Garrels

Humming House

Noah Gundersen

Enter Shikari

Chip Taylor

Merry F ng Christmas!!!!! With Love….